Sophisticated Love

History repeats.

2011-12-15T10:16:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow's my last paper before I start enjoying myself for 2weeks.

I know I must do well but procrastination killed me.

& not denying, YOU killed me as well.

History just have to keep repeating itself. SIGH.

Coming to a stage where i really wonder what love is?

I have to stay away from cyber, really hve to.

Because every single thing, either big or small just affects me a lot.

Not in the best of mood ever since that day.

I am petty. I am jealous.

For now, wishing you all the best.

爱会不会变?

2011-12-01T17:56:00.003+08:00

Finally, its december already. Time's passing by really fast!

December would be a busy & fun-packed month!

Mid sem tests, M'sia study trip, Holidays, Birthday & Christmas!!!!!!!

Anticipating, but definitely not studying for 5 mid sem tests.

Can't wait, CAN'T WAIT!!!

Past 2 weeks was really busy & energy draining. But i managed to cope with it!

Guess everything's gonna be fine!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

2011-11-21T01:42:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday my dearest girl, dearest taych♥♥♥

18 already!! Dua Han Liaoooo!!!!!!

No matter how tough things get, don't forget to put a smile on ur face.

I love how you laugh uncontrollably & cry at my jokes or stories! Stay this cheerful.

Hope this new stage of your life would be as smooth sailing & fulfilling.

May your passion for dance lead you to shine.

Stay strong & conquer all obstacles with ease & confidence!

Been saying happy birthday to you for 6 years already.

Meaning you must get happier each year! :)

Enjoy the 18cupcakes. Eat it for ur breakfast, lunch, dinner maybe supper too.

When the helium balloon gets deflated, put it under ur pillow & sleep with it!

爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你爱你！

Self-delusion

2011-11-16T00:19:00.003+08:00

World Diabetes Day on Sunday was quite awesome & fun

I realised i'm not shy at all in front of strangers. HAHA oops! >.<

Last week was a busy week but i managed to overcome it & still managed to meet up

with my babies ♡♡♡

Will be celebrating darling Jiamin's birthday this coming Sunday!

Wanted to disturb her but she already knew the prank! Shouldn't have told her about

my new prank! Omg damn bad, really evil me lol. Talking about birthday, 1 month 1 day

to my 18!!!!! Seriously can't wait!

No turning back...

Some things in life such as memories are worth remembering, but some are not.

Some things are worth the wait, patience & effort while some are not.

Life's forever full of regrets, full of setbacks & obstacles.

But it all doesn't matter.

& as of now, i will let go of the past becos i know u no longer play a role in my life.

P/s: Missing you. Miss me too?

Life's a bitch

2011-11-09T23:50:00.006+08:00

Will be really busy this week, to the next. Obviously with school work!

Today, Mdm Kalpana called out my name during lecture & told me i'll be helping out

at the World's Diabetics Day this Sunday at Suntec convention, together with 4 other

coursemates. She said some lecturers nominated us. I wonder who's the one who always

nominates me! -.- It's gonna be busy & stressful cos it'll be a big event. We're expected

to talk about diabetes & all to the public, as well as the minister. But, i'm anticipating.

Doing the 3rd major event of the year!^^

Been really tired these days. Lots of work left undone still. Where's my source of

motivation?? Sighhh. Had a really bad tummy ache last night! Probably due to the tasting

of food in the labs;high chance of food poisoning :/ Can i just not attend school for a day, pleaseeee.

I need a break from all these shit.

PS: I miss you.

Dreams can't take the place of loving you.

2011-11-06T14:03:00.002+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words, so can a song.

It's really awesome how a song can describe ur feelings.

It just ain't right

2011-11-03T22:03:00.003+08:00

This feeling just ain't right.

I joked about it, I laughed at it.

I was certain. I swore i would not let this happen, but it did.

Love is blind. I choose not to believe in this previously.

But now.....

Your voice, your laughter.....

Your concern, deep within ur heart or simply fooling around?

Your words, the truth or just lie, i choose to believe.

You doubt me & all i've said.

其实你不懂我的心........

I know i'm getting too dependent on you.

I know i've expected too much.

i know we're gonna stay as friends forever.

But this feeling?

Have i fallen for you? Yes, No?

I try my hardest, just to forget EVERYTHING.

2011-10-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

Can't stop replaying this song. Kelly Clarkson's Because Of You. An old but nice song.

Perhaps it's because of the meaningful lyrics, which brings back some memories?

Just felt like spending my night alone listening to this song. Sometimes, everyone just

need to have some quiet moment alone i guess. Not emotional though. The lightning

strikes, thunder roars when all i need is peace. Sigh, self reflection needed. Have i

achieved what i promised myself, as well as my friends? Can't possibly stay on like this.

Friends; they taught me to be strong, they protect me from my fear, they're always

there for me & forever lending me their listening ear. I love you all.

I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life

Currently in Love with Choi

2011-10-25T22:27:00.005+08:00

Been in love with David Choi. He's an American Chinese, in his early twenties & I think

he looks pretty cute. He's not exactly good looking, not really well known but he has got

an awesome voice. Meltz. Especially love two of his songs: By My Side & That Girl. His

nice voice really soothe my nerves.

Yesterday was the first day of school. School -'- First day of school & tonnes of

work and projects all thrown to us. For now, school's like a nightmare. Never enter F&B industry;

its really strict. Damn it. For labs, must wear until cover whole body &

short finger nails. Else, we'll be asked to bite off our nails. Too bad, suck on that. Life

goes on. Forgot to mention. I was offered an overseas internship at some

prestigious University! FUCK NO JOKE. I guess that's the University Dr Teo was

talking about, over at USA. How would i bear to leave this place for USA for like 6

months?!? Was happy to hear this but sorry, i rejected this offer.

Met up with my two babies Yanying & Jiamin. Felt sooo much better when i'm with them.

Dinner at Astons & we three made a fool out of ourselves there. Laughing, hitting the table

but who cares. Thank God for both of them really. Was at Suntec & I was stalked. Some

guy facebook msg me & ask me if i was there, in front of RedWing. Well, i was, together

with Yanying & Jiamin. Omg & this guy just fb chat me AGAIN! He says he can recognise

me from my photos bcos im pretty & i've got nice eyes. He says i looked at him fiercely &

he quickly look away. He said he spot me smiling, very sweet. WTF. & He asked me too look

for him next time in suntec & he'll treat me cos he's working there!!! Fuckfuckfuck. I don't

even know him fuck crazy.

What goes around, comes back around.

2011-10-21T18:07:00.003+08:00

Have you once cared?

Do you really mean what u said?

Do you deserve my tears?

Look at me in the eye.

Tell me the truth.

No lies.

Not in the best of mood

2011-10-20T12:13:00.005+08:00

Feeling super fucked up. Everything got worse after getting to know my timetable. I shall

rant the fucking shit out. Imagine 9 to 10 hours of school everyday. Where the fuck would

we find time for projects?!? Hardcore. 5days of lab=everyday wear long pants, covered

shoes & bring labcoat. Worst shit ever. What's worse is that the lecturers i don't like are

teaching my class. Just let me die now seriously. Now, this is what i call no life. Just want

poly life to past by fast & get the shit out of this course.

Sorry, this post is full of rants & vulgarities. But, please understand my pain. K bye, not

in the best of mood seriously. But one thing to be happy about. I'm in the same electives with

quite a few ex classmates & also Joel & DeeJin! We're all in this togther.

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

What is worth fighting for?

2011-10-18T20:08:00.007+08:00

Great day, great life. But mood was kind of dampened after receiving my timetable for

Monday. Super dreading to go school already :'( 8am class all the way to 6pm. 10hours

straight in school with only an hour lunch break. Beat that. Sure to get Monday Blues. Big

sigh, grumpy mode. Alright, must stay positive. School is good, school's gonna be as awesome.

Met my baby, Yanying for mad shopping today. Met many many weird people today,

seriously. Spent more than $200within hours & i actually told baby all i had left is only

enough to buy a loaf of bread. As for today, i got my Havaianas slippers, maroon contact

lenses & clothes. Oh anyway, i caught a beautiful lady today while shopping. A sales lady.

She's PRETTY, the face of a doll with cute chubby cheeks. Can't help but stare at her. But

she looks kind of plastic though, if only that's her natural look. She's gorgeous.

Buys for today ;)

P/s:

What is worth fighting for? In life, why do we have to work so hard, work so tough? All for

our future. But why? No goal, no target, no anything. Come back to the topic; fighting for

a good future? Fighting for a good life? Or perhaps for people around you whom u care &

love. I am really clueless.

Setbacks, breakdowns;

People may say doing your best is most important; at least its better than not trying at all.

But don't you feel that most people just judge you based on the final result and achievement.

For instance, someone asked you to run an errand & you did a really good job. People praise

you. But what if you don't meet their expectations? They might not consider asking you

for help the next time. But did they once give u a chance to explain ur wrong doings? Did

they even appreciate you for your hard work? Well, at least you tried. Sorry, they don't care

how hard you fucking tried. They do judge, trust me.

Someone take my fucking hand & guide.

Getting Too Vain

2011-10-17T21:23:00.010+08:00

School's starting next week. One last week to enjoy life. Gonna meet my babies

this week. Shopping with Yanying baby tomorrow. Talking about school, I really

hope timetable's good for this coming semester please. Feeling a little vain today;

decided to mix & match some of my clothes for school. For no particular reason,

I'm actually feel quite excited for school. Maybe its because I'll get to know

new coursemates. Other then that,hell no to school. Well anyway, different looks

I've planned for school below. Click to enlarge the photos. Pardon my nude face &

messy hair. Really didn't bother to tidy up. Looking really ugly here :(

Look 1: Dressing up a little for school

Look 2: Mature look, long pants for lab days

Look 3: Simple look for a simple day.

Look 4: Too Cool for School.

Looking ready for school? Certainly am. Got to do some last minute shopping this week for

school(: & It's mummy's birthday this coming thursday. Hehe anticipating for it because I

can tell mummy i love her! Bye for now~

Killing Me Softly

2011-10-16T18:49:00.001+08:00

True love speaks in tender tones

And hears with gentle ear,

True love gives with open heart

And conquers all fears.

~Bryan L. Harvey

For once, I thought I've picked myself up from that fall. Heart broken, tears dropped. I

thought everything would turn out fine. Life still goes on anyway. Apparently, nothing

has changed except the fact that I've lost my way & I really wondered what true love was.

Love;

when hearts are attached, emotions involved. Love is not as simple as saying I love

you. And indeed, true love does not visit you as often as you use the loo. Grab it tight &

never let go once you've got hold on it. Lesson learnt.

Why can't lovers ever be friends again? Explanation would be: Awkward feelings arise?

Pride? Hatred? Life is short, I've never tried hating him. For all the things that he had

done, I was greatly affected. But just as I thought I've moved on, I chose to look back.

Memories, emotions. Who can stop me from thinking? What about banging my head

against the wall? Or how about killing myself? Emotional breakdown; who doesn't? But

I've got to remind myself to stay strong, move on, life is beautiful, bright future

ahead....... & to my babies out there who are emotionally affected: No one knows what

will happen to you the next moment, so live life to the fullest because you know i'll be

there for you all.

To that someone out there, you left me without a reason. I know u won't come back.

So bye, & sorry, I've moved on. I will be happier than you. I will still survive, with

or without you. You should change that attitude of yours.